Broken / Free
If you’ve achieved whole
moments of completion
free of snark, flecks of ecstasy
abiding months or days
grateful, gracious,
joyous, or empty of desire,
the whole design of scapes
without a goat,
theorems without a thought,
companionship free
of compartments, or purpose
without worry,
but the sidewalk ended there:
realizing you
were walking on a sidewalk
without a road nearby,
wouldn’t it be absurd,
this concrete proxy
pretending to be its own
road, own ride, own raid?
Our words all related
in so many hurried
and easily hurtful ways.
The simple connectedness
of things that need now—
needs say—to pass through
their punctures.
Points taken
to extremes that seem
helplessly unlikely, but here
we are, depressing on.
What wood to diverge in?
The earth is filling up
with our tracks
and intransigence.
Nature at our margins,
our mire of mercies,
and if by now you’re yards
away, socks into burrs,
are you sure
you’ve stepped off
into the right
afterlife-in-life, this
nothing-sacred forest?
This copse a grove?
This don’t-call-it-that
core of corps.
This-please, for-your-
own-safety, don’t-think
of-corpse corporation.
Christopher Phelps is a queer, neurodivergent poet living in Santa Fe where he teaches math and letteral arts. He is searching for others who believe poetry can be equal parts vulnerable and subversive. His poems have appeared in Poetry Magazine, Palette Poetry, Beloit Poetry Journal, The Kenyon Review, Zoeglossia, and The Nation. A chapbook, Tremblem, was semi-privately printed in 2018. Details can be found at www.christopher-phelps.com/poetry.